So today is my birthday. Rather than ramble on about some topic or another, I'd like to take the time to express my feelings about my time here on this wonderful planet surrounded by so many wonderful people, places, things, and experiences. As you can tell, this is probably going to be a sappy post, but that's fine. You don't have to read it!! Or you can, that's fine too.
So, as the title states, I'm 28 as of today. For years now, I've given little concern to age and the whole getting older thing. I keep trying to stay filled with child-like wonderment, because that's just more fun. And I have completely accepted the attitude that age is simply a number indicating that you haven't died yet, so really it's a positive thing, not a countdown. It helps when you're planning on living to 300 as well, which I of course will do, because it just illustrates how much time I really have left to do great things. Previously, birthdays were the times I looked back and judged what I did or didn't do correctly. I've stopped that. Today is a day to be appreciative for the experience, for the good and great things, not a time to look back and piss and moan over my failings. Because there are no true failures so long as you're willing to keep trying, keep striving to do and be better...which I am doing.
I started my celebratory activities the way I always do, I stay up to 1:44 am, my actual birth time, and attempt to see my meteor shower. Every year, the Earth passes through a dust cloud that provides the Geminid meteor shower, my very own celestial heraldry of my birth. This year, oddly enough, there is reported to be a second, new meteor shower, link here: Meteor Shower! At the moment the clock rolls over, I quietly pray my thankfulness to Whoever might be listening, and re-new my promise to keep trying to do better, to do right, and to reiterate my overall appreciation for the last year and everything I experienced. Then I wait for the inevitably phone call from my mother, because I know she's going to wake up from a dead sleep to call me. Last night was a text, which is fine, I know how busy she is.
Last week, the Blood Center contacted me trying to get me in for a donation, and today was the first available day I had for them, so I went and did just that. Apparently a lot of people donate on their birthdays; like, that's a thing. I just might make that a tradition for me as well. Afterwards, with everyone in school or working, I didn't have anything planned. Thankfully, my sister, who works nights, called and offered to take me out for lunch, which I happily accepted. Free food, right? When we were done, we got some stuff for hanging out later with my family, took the dog for a walk, and now I'm just sitting, taking in the day and the last year.
A lot happened this year, nothing I will waste time going into detail of, but suffice it to say that it was eventful. I don't look back and see wasted or missed opportunities, I see happy memories or chances for improvement. What I really appreciate about today is my gazing toward the future, that's what gets me really excited. I understand New Years, maybe not the need to get hammered in order to celebrate an artificial calendar reset, but the idea of putting a pin in something and saying "Ok, time for the next one!" I do that more with my birthday though, as its significance is just a little grander and more personal for me. Obviously, right? Today, I get excited for what I get to do in the next year, what plans I can try to enact, where I'll get to go, who I'll get to meet, the relationships I'll build, the ones I have that I'll continue to strengthen, that sort of stuff.
I'm of course, on a personal level, very excited for what happens in the next week or so. I know this 2012 stuff isn't a heralding of the end times, but I think that something significant will happen nonetheless, because people believe something will happen. With strong belief can come hope, and from hope we can learn happiness, from happiness we will give and receive love. My first hope for this new year of mine is Ascended Super Powers. Failing to get those, I'll do everything I can as plain old ordinary (but just as wonderful, special, unique and worthwhile!) me to try and make this a better place for everyone, short and long-term (maybe if I behave myself I'll get my Super Powers next year!). I'm going to go enjoy the rest of my day, maybe waste some hours with video games or eat and drink way too many calories. But all the while, I'll appreciate every second!
-M
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